When I was younger, my biggest fear of dying.Then when I got older it was dying a virgin.
And now, my biggest fear is losing all those that I love and dying before I find that one special person.
I don't want to be wandering around in the afterlife with no clue of what love really is.
Lately, as my grandmother gets older, I fear what will become of me after her death.
I can truly say that I love my grandmother more than I love anyone else on this planet.I believe that her death will destroy the person I am, leaving me an empty husk.
I cannot face death, I still haven't accepted that Cody's gone.
I don't believe I ever will.
I think to often, and to much.
I always wonder things like: is my other half out there? What if I get cancer? Am I unloveable?
I know I worry to much.
But honestly, life terrifies me, not death.
Hey, listen.. Everybody's human. So of course you're going to worry.
ReplyDeleteYou aren't going to accept the death of your friend for a long time - that's just the way it goes. Take it from someone who knows. You won't accept it, but it WILL get a hell of a lot easier.
Your other half will be there somewhere, but we're still young. It doesn't matter if we haven't found them yet. If you get cancer, you'll just have to fight as hard as you can to fight through it.
It'll all turn out ok, have faith. My thoughts are with you :)